okay well its been awile and i moved in with my dad and it was nice but not home so after two weeks im back i couldnt stand it i did meet some really cool peple though

valentine special

heres some tips for buying the perfect things



first off instead f a dozen roses get one it shows u are serious and arent trying to hard

next dont go for the big teddy bears get a smaller one so she can snuggle up to it

then take her to a really fancy restruant shell like it because girls like to dress up they like to be shown off taking her to the dollar menu is not the wat to go

if you take her to the movies let her choose then dont try to make out when she lays her head on your shoulder kiss her forehead it shows you love her but u dont want her for sex or anything

Well i just found out ill proll be monving the day before valentines i dont kow how im going to handle i cried for hours last night just thinkning about i dont know how im going to move in the first place because knowing im not going to be able to hold chris ,hug chris ,see chris stare at me the way he does, or feel his gentle touch i honestly can not imagine ever leaving him but i have to now (bby ima miss you so much) i wish he could just pack his stuff up and move to..lets not even begin to talk about my mom i havent been away from here more than two weeks at a time im going to miss her so much just the way we talk about things, cook together, the way she helps me through difficult times in my life, this may sound stupid but ima miss her yelling at me ima miss cappa(my dog) when they say dogs a mans best friend dag gone theyre right because i love him so much my dad said i could bring him but hes has to stay outside i dont know weither i am or not but yea ......things are going to be so different ima have like no friends im not going to know no-one its gonna be hard i have a feeling that im going to be really depressed for a while after i move down there because i caint see my boyfriend, my mom, my friends, my family, my cappa......its just gonna be my dad and i but change is good for everybody ima have a whole lot more opportunties down there i just wish sometimes that my parents were still together or my dad still lived up here because i love then both dearly god knows i do and sometimes i wish i could find a magical lamp and receive 3 wishes....i would first wish that chris could move in with me...my mom could move down there...and last that i could meet tons of people and becomne very good friends with them...thats what id wish for. The real question is where do i find a magical lamp?

heck yes

schools out...thank-god....well im on the phone talking to my bby when i looked outside and saw snow......well im hungry as ish.... The real quesyion is what do i want to do with my day out?

Troubles

Today was farily good, we hada two hr delay but i still checked in late...whats the odds of that....it's really cold here, i wish it would start snowing again, it did for only bout a hour...I got to spend the whole day with my lover....(chris bby i love you)....but yea....i finally told my mom i wanted to move in with my dad....suprisingly she agreed.....she and her lover broke up...dont know why dont really care why...but what i do know is that queer broke her heart...she really liked him but who knows.....god has different plans you know...but any ways...ive need to talk to my dad..... The real question is call him now or get some shut eye?????

So Im talking to my bby on the phone, hes being silly as all ways. its rainy and cold outside hopefully itll sleet. Im still thinkin about moving, i mean its really hard i want to buut i dont want to leave my mom. but if i look on the postive things ill have a beter chance for better opportunties to pursue my dreams and all i dont want my mom to be by herself you know.....
i really have to think ....... fast because i have to give my dad a answer by friday because hes going to talk to the school.....im getting a little hungry...The real question is pringles or honey bunn??????

To move or not to move

Today I have a big descion to make. I love my mother dearly god knows I do, but sometimes she can be a b****!. She doesnt agree with me dating the love of my life Chris McElroy, she says I can do better. She's all the time worrying about material things instead of the real things. What can I say she's a computerohlic and thats not lie! She is more concerned in having a boyfriend or talking to guys or friends than me. My dad on the other hand cares for me, im not saying my mom dont because she does just not the right way. Yes, she provides food, housing, care, everything a good mom should but I dont know . She dates this guy, which not many people agree with the fact she is, being shes only been divorced 4 months. Well, this guy has got her sprung, I mean my mom bends over backwards for this guys and doesnt think twice about it! She's forever callimg him, texting, or traveling 45 minutes to see him. He never comes and see's her, hardly ever calls, or texts, and when he claims he is coming up here he becomes a NO SHOW. but she still thinks nothings going on. But, anyways they never invite me to go anywhere, i wouldnt if they did but they should. That man should have enough balls to invite his girlfriends daugther. I think if your gonna get into a relationship with someone and they have kids you SHOULD get to know them. My dad on the other hand meets girls who actually want to meet me and my brother. My dad really isnt my dad see my mom was married one to my real father divorced him, married my step dad who had a son he became step-brother and step-son, she divorced him. But my real father is nothing but a lying scum bag the only thing he was good for was providing the sperm to make me. But I claim my step dad as my real father he raised me since I was four and i consider my step brother my brother. But anyways yea my dad isnt interested in dating or anything he just moved and doesnt care for meeting another woman. He says im the only woman in his life. But still the girls he does meet or dying to meet me and my brother. They buy us stuff when they've never meet us. I mean really why caint the people my mom meet do that? I dont know but the decsion i have to make is whether to continue living with my mother or live with my father who is really something. My dad lives on another state so i would have to move schools and leave the love of my life. WIth out him i would die. But my dad hsa allready stated that if i move in with him my boyfriend could come stay the weekend with us and maybe the summer. My boyfriend and I have been through alot but were stronger than ever I love him more than anything in this world we've decided we want to spend the rest of our lives together, if its ment to be that way because you know God has better plans. But if he does ill accept the fact but chris will always be my bby my air my light my everything, he will always be my life. I quess when it comes down to it i want to move in with my father the real questions are how do i tell my mom and how will i livewithout chris?